Esclarmonde-Art

I quit deviantArt. 


This platform doesn't correspond to my needs anymore. There are too much things with very diverse levels of qualitiy and I am looking for something more professional. I feel that the sense of community is not as strong as it was before as well, so I prefer to move on other websites where I can have more feedback and visibility.



You can find me on :

 esclarmonde
 esclarmonde_art/   

It is the nice season to come back from the dead, so here I am ! 


I continued to work on my flower portrait serie. I revamped the illustration of Sarah, once again and painted my ruthless russian witch, Rada. I hope to have the time to publish both of them finished until Halloween. Here is a little WIP : 

I think that after this two, I will have to put this project on stand by, because working on the short animated movie for my school studies is taking me a huge amount of time and I want to stay healthy.


Another reason is also I realized that a toxic person from my past was still looking at my artwork, being, let's say ... very inspired by it, to stay polite.
Some of my drawings and illustrations have been traced, flowers from my illustration of Christina literally has been copy/pasted with few changes on a picture she did, same kind of compositions with few days appart from illustrations I posted, one of her characters is a copy/paste of Sarah with small changes, a new obsession for reptilians since I posted Sarah in her hybrid form, etc. I also saw one of her characters looking a lot like me. A texture on one of her illustrations coming from a picture I posted as the cover of my personal Facebook account, years ago. She changed her dA profile picture to look the same as mine few days after I changed it this summer, as well. The list is not exhaustive. I took screen captures with the dates as evidence. This is too much for me now.

I shut my mouth and sucked my feelings up for years, because I thought that by not saying anything, things would finish by calming down by themselves. Visibly, it is not. So I express what is wrong.

I feel stalked, harrassed, stolen, not respected, and the need to protect myself from this person. Seing what I see, I don't think she has the best intentions at heart concerning me. Especially since she tried to make rumors about me multiple times in the past, ironically, principally about being a plagiarist, among other unpleasant things.

I tried to make peace with this person on numerous occasions. I even tried to bury the hatchet with her by making her a gift and told her what was on my heart, two years ago. I guess it will be spoken about among some people, so I precise : in essence, I told her that I was sorry for hurting her feelings during some of our past exchanges. I don't like hurting people, even when I defend myself. Also that I recognized her main character as her own entity and had no desire to make another version of it (hence the illustration gift I had made to her), that we didn't have to be rivals. Also, that I felt sad and frustrated that things had gone so sour between the both of us, because we have very similar universes and we could have make good collaborations. Something that could have been great turned bad because of a toxic relationship, basically. It helped me to accept this fact and move on.
Even though, I would not do that again, because with more distance, I realized that this person felt more disturbed that I had done this action rather than anything else. It was naive and a clumsy mistake on my part. But time has past and for me it was over.

To conclude, this is also explaining why I was so absent lately. It is tiring for me to feel like I have to look up my shoulder each time I post something about my novel. If you have any advice to help me out of this situation, I take it gladly. I want this person to let me be and that things become finally peaceful. This is why I chose to not put her name here, I think the persons concerned will know what they have to know. I have no time nor energy for all of this, It needs to stop now.

However despite all of that, I will try my best to publish things about my other characters from Cold Blood from time to time. You will also be able to see my school project in details, next summer